It would be dishonest of me if I did not write about my feelings about my previous post. I have never had such an overwhelming response in terms of likes and shares. Ever. So that threw me off-balance, and I really didn’t know how to go about it the next time.
I feared that I would write something that wasn’t as ‘inspiring’ as that one, and I would disappoint people. I even consulted with an expert in the field.
But something was confirmed in my heart. That I should just write to express myself, period. Not to move the masses or elicit a certain reaction, as can be the trap of social media. I felt and knew that I had to remain authentic, true to who I am and how I see things, but more importantly, faithful to God – because it is He who gives me insights from everyday life. As long as I share what I feel is an inspired lesson, then that’s alright, and I shouldn’t worry about anything else. He’s my boss, and as long as I please Him, that’s what matters.
It says in the Bible that He’s the one who gives me (and us all, really) the power to make wealth. (Deut. 8:18). Eph. 2:8 also says that for by grace we have been saved, through faith, lest any man should boast. Which makes me really know that anything good that I do is really a gift of His grace, and in order to do well, I really must stay connected to Him – He’s the vine, I’m just a branch, just a vessel. It’s really about Him, always. (John 15).
I’ve also come to know that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength, because nothing is impossible with Him, and in Him I can do all things, and His assignment is actually fun. His yoke is easy, and His burden is light. (Phil. 4:13, Mk. 10:27, Mt. 11:28-30).
And so as I’ve been reflecting on the past 3 months of business, I have also been re-strategizing so that I pick what works and drop what doesn’t. The more I think about it, the more I realize that a lot of ‘hustling’ is really out of desperation and anxiety, and it doesn’t bring in much. But when I focus on what I’m really good at, what’s so easy for me to do, what almost comes naturally – it doesn’t feel like I’m expending much energy, the results come to me much faster and with more ease, and when the pay comes in, I really haven’t lost the quality of my life. And truly speaking, I am paid a lot more for things I could almost do in my sleep, than the other things.
So, in addition to acquiring quite some experience, I’ve also decided to take the ‘easy’ road. Easy in the sense that I will do my best to stay within my purpose, and for the right reasons and motivations. I will do what I enjoy, and because I do it so well, the returns will also be great from the happy clients. I will also have more time to do what I enjoy, and spend quality time with family and friends. Above all, by relaxing that way and putting my trust in God, I will, as I have already seen Him do, continue to see Him provide generously through His chosen paths. His blessings do not come with added sorrow (Prov. 22:6) and over time, I have come to realize that when I take up an opportunity that fills me with anxiety right from the onset, things don’t go well. When I take up something I’m excited about, something I could even do for free, things go sooo, sooo well.
And so back to my previous post. It took me about 10 minutes to write what was burning in my heart, what I was passionate about. I did not expect such a response. Honestly. I think I’ll ‘do’ all of life from my heart, like that. Not to fit into any boxes, but to discard the boxes, and just be. For it is in shining our light that we inspire others to let theirs shine.