What is self-esteem? It has been said that someone’s self-esteem can be high or low, but what causes each? One of my studies brought me to some findings, which I find consistent with the experiences of my life.
I grew up as a bright young kid, but one who got to see her dad rarely. Although I had many good things in my life, I sort of concentrate on the one thing I didn’t have much of,that was a dad.
This got me to trycover up in many ways, but really the problem did not go away. I thought I was unlovableundesirable. I think I must have projected that image because that’s the feedback I got –I think it affected me more because I opened my hart wide to receive what I thought I deserved.
Even when people genuinely loved me, I didn’t take it at face value; I always thought they had ulterior motives which were not good.
It was quite a bit into my life when I began knowing that I didn’t have to let my past affect my present or my future. I learnt that God could heal my woundsmake me whole. That God could take my burnt ashes, the burnt ashes of my heartdreams –give me instead a garland of praisea crown of joy.
Slowly by slowly I started accepting His love, although I must admit that it was not easy to develop trust in Him. With time, I discovered that God’s word already declared God things about my past, presentfuture. He had already forgiven me, loved me before I knew,promised me that He had good plans for me, promised to never leave nor forsake me.
This He had already done. I already was worth to Him lots before I knew it, even when I disdained myself so. He didn’t give up on me, He kept on loving me. He still loves me,will alwaysforever unconditionally love me.
This definitely boosts my self-esteem, especially because I see myself through His eyes. I think God-esteem is the best esteem ever.
What do you think?